why try?
lifes just going down hill now. the perfect life i thought i had is not so perfect anymore.. school sucks, so much work. senior project, class work, clubs, yearbook. i frickin hate it. my social life is sucking right now also, all i do is stay home all day playing games cause theres nothing else to do. when there is something to do, i always have work.. i barely even have money ! so sad. my love life? fights everyday, back and forth. its really starting to get to me. we fight over the littlest things, but some are also big. no one knows even half of our relationship. not even a little. my friends? i cant look at everyone the same except a few now.. when im with them, they just look at me? i mean, im always in a bad mood, but noone talking to me and not trying to help just makes everything worse.. when i need someone, no one is ever there. idk who to depend on. idk who to trust. i honestly dont know what to do anymore. i cant take it, i hate fighting with the person im inlove with, and i hate being ignored by the people that means so much to me. im tired of trying, i just wanna break down. this is so difficult. i hope everything starts to be the same as how it was before.. i dont even do anything to anyone, but i know people talk about me. i take it to the heart everytime someone teases me.. i mean, why tease me? i never did anything to you. i hate people that rag on me for no reason. im at that point of just yelling and letting everything out already. im just so irritated. i feel hopeless.. so, why try?
Girls:
If you think your future boyfriend will be a ukelele playing dancing singing hypebeast swag person who will take pictures with you as cute couples looking into the distance for some effective shit whilst having the ability to be a photographer and taking a constant stream of images of him showing his abs whilst wearing a SnapBack…it’ll never happen girl…find a decent guy who will love you even without abs.
Guys:If you think your future girlfriend will be a hot dancer and singer with swag and wears trashy clothes and loads of make up looking like some whore but still trying to be classy by covering up her pictures with supreme logos copied and pasted from Google Images, then fuck off and find someone who you can love even with their imperfections.
Reality:
We can all dream but sometimes we gave to realize it’s not always a reality. Don’t push away that person because they aren’t goodlooking or don’t follow the trend in society. In the long-run, all you’ll be loooking for is trust, support, love and an actual future not filled with heartbreak and sorrow. Sorry.
